Why are we so desperately and hopelessly attracted to dark personalities and emotionally damaged people? Why do we find someone's inner perversions, and darkness so charming?
It's very hard indeed to challenge your core beliefs.
It can be tremendously painful to see that your core beliefs may be based on deception, weakness, brainwashing, lies etc...
However, if you want to be free, if you want to be your own person, if you want to avoid deception and exploitation, you need to challenge your core beliefs at all costs.
I like that I smell badly. I haven't showered in days.
I like that I look like a mess. I didn't care what I was gonna wear or how I was gonna look like.
I like that my eyes are red from crying and my lips swollen from biting them.
I like that I look so miserable that if I saw me on the street I would pity me.
I like that I'm listening to darkwave while crying for him.
I like it that my pain is so obvious and apparent that it can't be ignored.
"To become and remain famous you owe to your audience to create an illusion. They have to believe you're better, you're perfect. To become and remain an artist you owe to yourself to be yourself."
Sex is the ultimate agreement by people to sink differences in a common
cause! It's also the most beautiful form of consumerism and materialism.
Two people become consumer objects to each other, and the consumer
instinct never lies. Passion, in its will-erasing irrationality, is the
best form of honesty. In sex, to paraphrase Jean Renoir, everyone has
his unreason.